Stage IIIa non small cell squamous cell carcinoma of the left bronchus.
28.2.07
Sick or...
I think dad has pneumonia or a virus. He seems weaker and his voice is a bit hoarse. He has no energy. He doesn't want to eat...an ongoing problem. He requested his nebulizor medication. He is taking Darvocet frequently...I don't know if he is having that much pain since his last thoracentesis or...I don't know. He had some Levaquin left and started on that...but...I think he needs to go to the Dr. Of course he threw a big ass fit when I told him I was making an appointment and taking him. NO NO NO he told me. okay...I get it. Don't help you when I know better shit this has been a day from hell anyway and now I feel even more of a failure. some nurse/daughter I am
On February 24 and February 27, 2006, EWG (Environmental Working Group) purchased the following drinks at four major retail outlets in Washington, DC. They all contained ascorbic acid and either sodium benzoate or potassium benzoate—the ingredients that the FDA and the beverage industry have said can mix together to form benzene, a known human carcinogen. The actual levels of benzene formed in these products may be at trace levels and well within legal limits for drinking water.
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Dad had a left lung thorecentesis yesterday. For him, it was extremely painful...the worst one yet. He said, "I'm not doing it again", and I think I believe him. Maybe there will be no need for it. They drained off 800cc of fluid this time. He took 2 Percocet for the pain and I think those meds helped him. He is to get Zometa on March 9th or so. I guess he is not choosing to do the parathyroid surgery. He is depressed. The last time he went to the Dr. (and I couldn't go to this appointment) the Oncologist said things that were depressing Mom said....like..."If I were a betting man I'd bet this cancer will come back", and "If you are going to be around for 4 or 5 years more I would suggest the surgery"...and I guess the way he said things he was looking down at his hands and just...depressing. Dad's weight is 140's. He isn't eating. Doesn't want to. But his scans are good. State...No sign of cancer. Although his Calcium remains on the high side. 11 this time. shit, I don't know. Bastard Dr anyway. Bastard Cancer anyway. Fucking cigarettes anyway.
Talked with mom about 1 hour ago. The endocrinoligist called and said he thinks dad does have thyroid trouble and wants him to see the surgeon on Feb 22nd in Lincoln. DAMN. Just a bit of tarnish on our good news.
Word on the CT scan? Yes...C L E A R from cancer. Yes, there is fluid bilaterally. Yes there are radiation changes. No metastasis. No new growth. Nada. Liver clean, kidney's clean, abdomen clean.
Dad had a CT scan with barium swallow today. We went up to Kearney, did the test, got groceries in Holdridge, and came home. We go back to Kearney on Monday for the results. We have not received the results for the test ordered by the endocrinologist either. Do we want to or??? I don't know. Sometimes ignorance is bliss.